THE UNVEILING TRUTH
Let today be the day of memory of us. The day where we
revealing who ourselves. Where we bare each other souls. Thank you to finally
trust me to be the one bearing the secret life of the other you. For a while, I
was wondering about you. Not because the closer we get the stronger the
feelings. But, for the existence of yourself in my life. I believe people come
into our life with purpose. Some are good, some to give us a lesson and some to
stay until the end of time. Will you stay? I don't know.
I have a lot of trauma letting people in into my life.
Especially those who I let them in deeply. Mostly after a while, they will just
disappear like smokes. Totally out of sight and out of life, can't even be
contacted anymore. Then, I will blame myself because of the situation. I know
it's not even my fault, but something always makes me feel insecure regarding
having someone I call a dear friend, a best friend or even someone special. If
you asked me why? I don't know. I'm still looking for the answers too.
Maybe too much of disappointments in life, also some bad
experiences. I don't know. Completely, understand this kind of feeling is not
good for me. But, sometimes I just can't help it to feel that way. It's not
like I already have some kind of premonitions about the situation, but most
things happened as I predicted.
I told you once and keep telling the side of me where I envy
the people around you. I know it sounds like a nonsense babbling, but it's
true. I don't think I ever have someone as intense as I'm chatting with you.
The insecurities go with the questions, you never want to
answer. I keep asking why you stayed to chat with me every single day. Yet you
keep answering I'm repeating the questions, again. There are times when we have
our own moment to breathe. You're with your days and me with mine. But, nothing
that I do when I'm not thinking about you, even you came into my dream. One
that I wonder, again.
This is something I want to tell you for a while, a simple
Thank YOU. But somehow I feel I don't have enough words or the right moment,
until today. Hopefully, with this post, you understand how important you are
already for me. There's something between us which better not being said, but
more to feel inside. I know you understand what I'm saying, yet we both keep
denying what the feeling was. I guess its better stay that way, I let you be
the brother, a best friend and a so-called-online-lover, I never had.
There are times when you make me feel special, there are
times you also being a young guy at your age. You keep telling me that you're
some kind of ignorant person, but you're not. The evil inside you makes the
cover real good like a page of a grand magazine. To me, you're charming, sweet,
kind and honest. The kind of things that your other character won't let you be.
You have to stay like he wants you to be. As evil as you can be.
I'm just glad, you finally confide in me. Again, thank you.
Wishing you dearly to have an amazing life ahead, the kind of
life that you keep dreaming about with that Angel of yours. I wish you both to
stay together until then, to have each other back. I wish the relationship
getting stronger as the days passed. Is this sound like a jealous or envy
person? Indeed! HAHA...this meant to be a sarcasm!
NAAAAA...
I love you.
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