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Nowadays, we do live in the world where sincere thank yous are rare. Where sorries and apologies are extinct. Let alone, caring for the sake of the people we love. We tend to ignore good the feelings inside but more to the selfishness. 



We don't care about what we do to the people who love us unconditionally, either friends or family members. We tend to pay attention more to the flaws and mistakes they do. Especially, we tend to pay more attention to how many followers and likes we have daily. Yet, we tend to ignore the real person in front of us, but more to the DM's and other personal chats. 

I used to become the person who cares more about the people in my chats rather than my friend talking about his/her days in front of me. That's when I got my first blackberry. Until one of my very best friends hit me in the gut by telling me how rude I was not paying attention to what he just told me. 

His statement hit me like Thor's hammer in my belly. 

After that, I learned a lot about being present for most of my friends who need me, personally. Not me in the chat rooms or DMs or whatever online messages I have in the palm of my hand. I'm trying to be a good listener and said my piece of advice when needed, sometimes. Most importantly, I'm trying to be present for them.

It's not something easy to be done. Trust me. Especially when you're already so addicted and attached to your cell phone. But, there's always something about a time you spent with this person or group of people you can't definitely take back. 

It's a memory with them. 

Stupid jokes, pervert comments, laughter, crazy stunts and just doing what hanging out with friends supposed to be. Because you know what? Those memories won't come back! Exactly like time. It passes you by every time you blink your eyes. 

Can't you imagine if that's the last time you're going to talk with them? As if they just evaporated from this world like dust. Will you regret it? Will you play all that 'if only' words in your head again and again? 

I bet you would. 

I'm saying this because I learned from my experience having lost some friends, I wish I could be better to treat them. To pay attention more to their own troubles or even just a need share some stupid jokes. 

So, I wish you can be better than I am. I wish you can express more about how you feel or how you want other people to treat you back. Because those are the things that will shape your character and your future. When you can treat others the way you treat yourself then everything will become gold. 

I'm sorry, please, forgive me. Thank you, I love you. These words are my magic mantra I keep telling myself daily. Whenever I feel down and I told some of you too. Practice makes perfect said the Wiseman. I hope one day you will understand whatever I'm saying in here. 

Remember, you are SUPER in anyways. 
Have a great life ahead, darlings! 





I learned the hard way to understand boundaries and privacy. Wasn't sure actually it's going to be like this. But, I completely aware of the consequences yet, I'm still crossing the lines.

We finally had that big argument. Completely understand I'm in a very wronged position but I'm not going to defend myself. Instead, I apologized in so many ways to him. 

Started out as a friend, I never think or even had the slightest idea we will get too close to each other. Yet, the normal way of getting close to someone is to know them better. Their behavior, their loved ones even their families. But, I guess with him was have to be in a different angle. I never realized it until it happened. Invading his privacy when he kept it very private. Sometimes, curiosity indeed like a ghost hunting in your dreams. It scared you shitless but you still curious enough to get to know more.

Being mysterious was his agenda. While I'm the one who always has the whispering ghost.

I completely don't know anymore how to explain it to you about my action. Because never in my attempt was to wreck your relationship or our friendship from the very beginning. I love you in ways only you would understand, that's why I'm not going to do harm or whatsoever. But, I did what I'm not supposed to even when he already said it and I already promised him.

This is a very tiring week for me since I don't have any more energy to apologized to you. I tried anything more than I'm supposed to, but you're not that easy to forgive what I did. Even though I know you're acting like this to punish my action.

I guess I let the time to heal you. Until then, hopefully.



Aku melebur malam itu dalam sentuhan mesramu yang tak pernah ku harapkan untuk terjadi sebelumnya. - MW - 18 Juli 2018 - 13:26 WIB


I wasn't blind to understand the feelings and the gesture of everything gradually happened between us. Even I keep telling myself not to take it seriously. But, it's hard. I'm just a woman who loves the attention and the pervert jokes too.

Never crossed my mind before even to actually let everything flow like this. But, as the time goes by the feelings arise. I don't want to lie to myself. I do care for you and for whatever exists between us.

Always love the road trip with you, as fun as it supposed to be. But, last Sunday was one of the best thrilling episodes for me. I thought such an experience would ever have happened again with me. Hence, you make it worth.

For me, it's something special, indeed. Something I can remember of your existence in my life. 

You came out of the blue with such a persona, once you told me that you're being ignored. Still, you've made it through as a special person in my life.

Just like a petal flower or the chocolate candies home from the story of Hansel and Gretel, you lure me into your life, slowly. Was I unprepared? I don't think so. I can see it in my mind soon or later something might happen to us. I just hoping you would brave enough to seize it.

Good morning with you - first road trip
Birthday wishes come true
I'm confused and feel awkward, I don't know what to do or say to you. Why change? What did I do wrong if everything being done? 

Hoping you would not be the same as any other guy who passed through my life. Because you're worth more than just becoming them. I can't operate as I'm supposed to as I write this, my mind goes blank and try to calm myself down. I don't want to lose you as a dear friend of mine. That's all I'm hoping.

I love you in a way you can only understand and you know how you feel towards me, I said it out loud already. I wish we can settle this tomorrow.

Peace Offering





Nasi Pecel
What if I tell you there's actually an alternative place for you to eat something healthy? Like vegetables and stuff? But, the clue to this place is a bit challenging. Why? Because it's a bit far from Jakarta.

But to my defense, if you're actually a food lover especially like to try the new culinary place, you come to the right place. This only open on weekend means Saturday and Sunday only from early morning. 

Schedule Time
The Souvenirs Shop


The name Mirama came from this souveniers shop. There is some food stall actually collaborate in front of the lobby of this shop. You can taste the original Indonesian food while you shop for more Indonesian snacks inside the store.

If you're the type of person who loves snacking and hand carries something for your friends and loved ones, this definitely the place for you.

You can't miss the exterior and interior for this place. The surroundings are full of carves and wooden statues, even to the decoration of the food stall. Definitely, something to show it off this is Indonesian souvenirs store like.










The Pecel Madiun Stall



Now, how can you resist this temptation?

Pecel is one of the traditional Indonesian food. This comes from Madiun, East Java. The usual ingredients are from vegetables, such as bean sprout, cucumber, fried red onion and the crunchy thing with nuts is Rempeyek. This is just a good addition to eat with this food.

The nuts sauce also a bit spicy, but it makes you want to try more with another side dishes of your own choices.

NASI PECEL MADIUN
Komplek Ruko Galaxy
Jl. Sedap Malam, Jaka Setia, Bekasi Selatan
Open Saturday - Sunday ONLY
06:00 A.M - finished

Please, do come and visit this place when you're around the area.
Say Hi to the cashier at the Pecel for me, kay? Tell him I brought him, customers.







HUNTING GAME POSTER
It was just one out of the blue planning I hear in my thoughts and I try to let it become reality with some help from my friends. I was having with the analog camera for the past year seems like most of the people out there also excited with the old but new sensation.

There are some new kids that actually pretty new with this old technology, so I went to make some pooling over Instagram stories, and the result was amazing.

Then I started to plan the game. Basically, it was like treasure hunt game. Where people look for something was the end game. But, I make it like a clue to be able to meet at the meeting point.

Oh btw, we played at one of the central parks we have in Jakarta, it was at the Monument National park. Where people can actually find some historical stories around the park since there are some statues of national heroes in the area.


 

VIEW OF THE MEETING POINT - I HIDE HERE

THEY ACTUALLY SHOWED UP


ME AND ADIT
One of the best highlights was to see and meet this one friend of mine. It's been one hell of so many rides before real life actually consumed us into our daily life. I'm thankful for the technology nowadays because it makes the distance closer to all the apps in our hands.




This one also my best highlight. To invite all the women photographers that I know to hang out at one Saturday afternoon at one of my best hangout place Melly's Garden Cafe. I'm just glad the hang out went well and some of them really just showed up.



STREET EXHIBITION

I'M IN NEWSPAPER

FINALLY MEETING THEM!

THE BOSSES BIRTHDAY

WITH BEAUTIFUL GIRLS

MEET ABIYOGA FOR THE FIRST TIME
Let today be the day of memory of us. The day where we revealing who ourselves. Where we bare each other souls. Thank you to finally trust me to be the one bearing the secret life of the other you. For a while, I was wondering about you. Not because the closer we get the stronger the feelings. But, for the existence of yourself in my life. I believe people come into our life with purpose. Some are good, some to give us a lesson and some to stay until the end of time. Will you stay? I don't know.


I have a lot of trauma letting people in into my life. Especially those who I let them in deeply. Mostly after a while, they will just disappear like smokes. Totally out of sight and out of life, can't even be contacted anymore. Then, I will blame myself because of the situation. I know it's not even my fault, but something always makes me feel insecure regarding having someone I call a dear friend, a best friend or even someone special. If you asked me why? I don't know. I'm still looking for the answers too.

Maybe too much of disappointments in life, also some bad experiences. I don't know. Completely, understand this kind of feeling is not good for me. But, sometimes I just can't help it to feel that way. It's not like I already have some kind of premonitions about the situation, but most things happened as I predicted.

I told you once and keep telling the side of me where I envy the people around you. I know it sounds like a nonsense babbling, but it's true. I don't think I ever have someone as intense as I'm chatting with you.

The insecurities go with the questions, you never want to answer. I keep asking why you stayed to chat with me every single day. Yet you keep answering I'm repeating the questions, again. There are times when we have our own moment to breathe. You're with your days and me with mine. But, nothing that I do when I'm not thinking about you, even you came into my dream. One that I wonder, again. 

This is something I want to tell you for a while, a simple Thank YOU. But somehow I feel I don't have enough words or the right moment, until today. Hopefully, with this post, you understand how important you are already for me. There's something between us which better not being said, but more to feel inside. I know you understand what I'm saying, yet we both keep denying what the feeling was. I guess its better stay that way, I let you be the brother, a best friend and a so-called-online-lover, I never had.

There are times when you make me feel special, there are times you also being a young guy at your age. You keep telling me that you're some kind of ignorant person, but you're not. The evil inside you makes the cover real good like a page of a grand magazine. To me, you're charming, sweet, kind and honest. The kind of things that your other character won't let you be. You have to stay like he wants you to be. As evil as you can be.

I'm just glad, you finally confide in me. Again, thank you.

Wishing you dearly to have an amazing life ahead, the kind of life that you keep dreaming about with that Angel of yours. I wish you both to stay together until then, to have each other back. I wish the relationship getting stronger as the days passed. Is this sound like a jealous or envy person? Indeed! HAHA...this meant to be a sarcasm! 

NAAAAA...

 No matter what life give ahead of you, just remember. When others failed, let me be the last one who saved you from whatever pains you feel. That's a promise!

I love you.




It's definitely not easy to write again. I can't even write any highlight of my 2017. While there are lots of things went by through the year. 

I even let January went by that easily without a single word here.

Hopefully, this time will be easier for me to write things down. Been managing pictures for a while, also planning to print a photobook too. I don't even know if I can manage to have the deadline very soon. 

Let's just hope there will be some time to arrange and design the book.
It's been a while since last I wrote something in here. I'm lost for words. I feel numb all over. The depression taking over my conscience.

But, you came along out of nowhere.

I still remember that first warm hugs that night. It makes me feel like I belong in the realm of your arm curves. Even if it's just a warm introducing hugs, it touched me deeper.

Never realize the meeting will turn out to be an unplanned date. The kiss goodnight so tenders shivering the back of my bones.

Should I not fall for you then?

Some say beautiful mistakes are still beautiful. While you're my handsome one.

So, please stay for a while.
Let me fall deep into the warmth of your kindle heart. Before everything breaks into nothingness.

Then, I will miss you 'till the end of time.


Thank you for the simple smile and silly jokes, you make me smile again.
After a while, I thought I don't have any purpose anymore to be alive.
I guess, there is always something to think about out of severe depression.

Thank you for making me feel so happy.
Thank you for becoming the reason to face my everyday.
Thank you for the kindness heart-care and attention.

Last but not least, thank you for letting me to love you, for now.





Damn period!

That's the first reaction when I finally said yes to the invitation to one-day getaway. Because having the first day or two was the most uncomfortable one. Let alone need to travel. Anyway, I never actually traveling in such a rush. But this time I really need the quick trip away from this crazy town. I've been wanting to go to Jogja for a while. Can't seem to find the perfect time or just the money to go. When the time is right, the money not cooperating. When there's money, the timing was never right. That's why since this trip being paid for - I just said YES to the last minute.

I miss being in Jogja and hanging out with my dear friends who live there. Since the time constraint, I'm happy yet a bit sad won't  be able to meet them. I went during weekdays they're all working. I have to accept the facts.

Anyway, I went with four gentlemen. They're celebrating their work progress by going on a one-day trip. I was just the last-minute invitee.



I'm just happy to be able to take some of their pictures. Pretending to become a so-called-photographer, the least I can do to actually paid my free trip was with taking them nice pics.

These pictures of them were at the Taman Sari - a place for the mistresses of Sultan and the children, back in those days. This place open from morning until 5PM in the afternoon. My suggestion go there when the lights still up, so you will be able to take some good shoot. Still, if it's too bright there will be a chance for you to get lots of backlight too. That's happened when I was there. It was just too hot for a day in Jogja.

The least to say other than the hot weather, the ticket for the domestic is quite cheap, less than USD 1. I'm sorry didn't get a chance to ask and realize asking for the foreigner price.


PUTHUK SETUMBU

We woke up really early for the sunrise and the hike to this place. It's a bit far from Jogja about 2 hours drive alone. Depends on your driver though. The place still in ongoing construction from the road to the homestays.

There was also a ticket price to go in. Just prepare some cash when you're planning to come to this place.

A small hill for 15 minutes hikes just to see the sunrise on Borobudur Temple from the other side.
First Light at Puthuk Sethumbu
Maybe it's only a one-day trip but to be able to have additional new friends and come back to Jogja after all these years just one hell of a nice trip for me. Finished the roll in my camera too and reload a new film of black and white. I cannot wait for the result.

Morning Coffee
Gorgeous Lights

Floating Leaves

Hopefully, your week also as great as mine!




Bali and it's never ending surprises! This will be my first time this year to be on this island again. Will be going again soon to meet up with some friends from far away land.



I don't really have much to say about this island. You definitely can find lots of things around the net about this island and how gorgeous it this the view. You can definitely see the most beautiful sunsets and sunrises, the amazing view of the cliffs and beaches. Lots of temples for sure and beautiful gates too!



I am indeed lucky to be living in this country with lots of amazing view of islands.

One thing for sure every time I went to this place always to hang out with some friends, find a new spot to take some pictures. Meeting old friends for some reunion over coffee with a view. Things we don't get to see while in Jakarta.

Coffee with me?
So, if one day you want to hang out and see Bali, let me know. Maybe when the time is right we can hang out together.

May your dreams come true,

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