Christmas is a gift from above. A gift of salvation born of God's love.
Today live by the principle, "It's fa more blessed to give than to receive"


The holiday season is here
*suppose to be, but I guess we -Indonesian- are not*

Just wanna wish you all a wonderful Christmas, for those who celebrating.
Hope some of you enjoy the one day off, use it wisely for the sake of holiday,
will ya? :D



Picture taken courtesy of DeviantArt:Nighty

Sania - Ibunda

Teringat aku di waktu kecil
Aku dibuai manja
Aku dibelai sayang
Sentuhan ibunda

Bila kuberduka kau hibur aku
Kau buat aku tersenyum
Dalam candamu ibunda
Kau slalu kukenang

Kau bagaikan bintang
Bercahaya terang yang menyinari
Kehidupanku
Kau sungguh mulia
Setulus cintamu
Kuberjanji menjagamu sampai akhir hayat nanti (2x)

Pengorbananmu
Terimakasih Ibunda

Ibunda

Kau bagaikan bintang
Bercahaya terang yang menyinari
Kehidupanku
Kau sungguh mulia
Setulus cintamu
Kuberjanji menjagamu sampai akhir hayat nanti

Ibunda
Tercinta


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I hope someday you can be proud to have a daughter like me,
I love you, always dearest Mom

:)

December is always be my mom's month. 'Coz everything a mother could celebrate really on this month, at least for her. A b'day, and there's Mother's Day not long after that there's Christmas. What a festivity, you think? No? kekeke...

Anyway, today is her b'day :) I asked my sort-of-cousin order a tiramisu cake for her. Still dunno what's the plan for tonight tho. But probly just a simple dinner with her that's all.

Dear Mom,
I haven't prove anything or even make you happy probly. But I'm sure you know that I do love you, with all the happiness in this world. There's nothing in this world could change how I feel and the need to make you the most happiest person.
I need you to trust me, again. Despite all the things you've said and told me that I'm ignorant. I'm not. I will always love you with all my heart and soul, dear mother. Forever. I want you to know that or maybe someday you would understand why I act the way I did. Have a wonderful birthday, mother...

Mei :)

I dunno when and where I got this, but I'm sure its been awhile and I dunno if some of you have read it or not. I just want to share it again with you all.
If some of you knew who wrote it, please let me know. Cause I really want everybody knows who wrote this nice advice :)
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I have never met a person who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldom met a person who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seems constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.

When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each other.
I looked at older couples and saw at best, toleration of each other.

I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering days and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate. And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles.

It was an astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the other's habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?
The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed.

It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early stages. Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by which the relationship eventually survives or fails. You need to find a way to see beyond the initial overwhelming sexual fascination. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.

The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality. This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility

One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each other's company over the long term. If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new.

Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour.
Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become based on being critical together.

After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respects. When two people first get together, they tend to see their relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again.

If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will inevitably come to grief.

Look at the way she/he cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her/him more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other. There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself.

We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny. If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her/him, you will find yourselves growing further apart, until you live in separate worlds where you share the business of life. But never touch each other where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.

So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in your hearts. I pick "m" words carefully when I speak of miracle. There is a miracle in marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation - one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child.

Only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and to be leavened by the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex. So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation.

If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can

Resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, and then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience.

When the time comes, a thousand flowers will bloom.

Cheers!!!

[Unknown Source]

I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their e-mail. Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you.

Here goes:
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Send this to every friend that you have, including the person who sent it to you.

[Unknown Source]
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I thank Liansi for sending such beautiful email and I thank YOU - each and everyone of you that read this - personally for coming and become part of my short life here on Earth. Thank You for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

FINE
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

FIVE MINUTES
If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

NOTHING
This is the calm before the storm. This means "something," and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with 'Nothing' usually end in "Fine"

GO AHEAD
This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it.

LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing"

THAT'S OKAY
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not question it or faint. Just say you're welcome.

WHATEVER
It's a woman's way of saying *!#@ YOU

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We -woman- do that sometimes, but don't count on these things :D 'cause we're far more complicated...hahaha...

Have a GREAT Monday, guys!

Some people mentioned that pictures said more than words can say. I got few beautiful images from emails that friends sent me and I'd like to share some of 'em with all of you. Hope you like 'em as much as I like 'em :)

ENJOY!

Thanks for Hayley by sending me these beautiful pics :)
Now, I've realized :)



These Kamasutra Chocolates are emailed by Mona, one of my co-worker. I dunno where the hell she got it, but kinda delicious to eat 'em and also to practice it? *wink wink* hahahah...*joking!*

Thanks, Monce!



hmmm...chocolates :)
Yummy...

Kadang orang menulis hanya untuk menuangkan perasaannya saja. Ada juga orang menulis karena tuntutan, mengerjakan tugas sekolah, kuliah atau tugas kantor. Sehingga menjadikan menulis itu sebagai sebuah kewajiban.

Tapi bagi orang yang suka menulis. Menulis apapun akan dilakukan dengan senang hati, dan mereka tau bagaimana caranya membangun mood tidak enak jadi enak kembali. Sehingga apapun yang ingin disampaikan melalui tulisan dapat tertuang.

Seperti gue yang punya cukup banyak teman yang suka menulis. Entah menulis apapun tertuang dengan begitu santai, membingungkan bahkan kadang ada yang terlalu ilmiah sampai yang hanya mencontek tulisan orang tanpa membubuhkan siapa penulisnya. Berbagai ragam tulisan terpampang di dunia maya ini.

Namun, namanya manusia [kalo masih bisa disebut manusia] sering lupa. Itu merupakan salah satu sifat dasar. Yang kadang juga dijadikan alasan untuk berdalih. Lupa akan halhal yang pernah ditulisnya. Lupa akan perasaan saat menulisnya. Lupa akan sapa yang memberi inspirasi. Bahkan saat menulis bisa lupa akan topik yang sedang di tulis. Aneh kan? Tapi itulah manusia.

Mungkin gue hanya salah satu dari sekian banyak orang yang kadang suka membaca tulisan sendiri. Jadi kalau lagi iseng suka membaca lagi arsip lama, sehingga tidak melupakan apa yang pernah ditulis. Jika suatu saat ada orang yang membacanya dan mengatakan suatu hal yang berhubungan dengan tulisan gue, [mungkin] gue akan inget bahwa gue pernah nulis tentang itu. Memang tidak semuanya hafal, tapi beberapa yang menyentuh hati orang dan yang juga menyentuh hati gue, pasti akan gue inget selalu.

Kadang bahkan suka bingung sendiri, koq bisa sih saat itu gue menulis seperti ini. Keren juga yah?! kekeekeke...:D terkadang malah binun sendiri, apa bener yah gue yang nulis? Seakan memang saat menulis adalah saatnya jiwa lain yang merasuk dalam sanubari dan seakan sedang meminjam raga ini.

Entahlah

Jadi, sedikit saran buat temanteman yang suka menulis. Jika ada waktu senggang, lihatlah kembali tulisan lama kalian. Mungkin disana akan kalian temukan sesuatu. Sesuatu yang bisa digunakan untuk mengatasi perasaan yang saat ini kalian rasakan. Entah perasaan bingung, sedih, sukacita bahkan jatuh cinta, kangen dan patah hati.

Sesuatu yang terlupakan. Mungkin malah bisa dijadikan sebagai pemacu semangat saat ini. Entah dalam bentuk tulisan apapun yang sudah pernah kalian tulis. Tapi itu adalah bagian dari hidup yang sudah dan pernah terjadi.

Seru juga kan, kalo ternyata pada akhirnya malah tulisan sendiri yang membangun semangat baru untuk menghadapi hari yang tadinya bete, jenuh dan lesu. :)

Ayooo semangadddd!



PS: makanya dit, jangan males belajar kekekeke…

Seperti kebanyakan orang Jakarta pasti tau dan mungkin pernah merasakan nikmat dan gak nikmatnya naek Bajaj. Suaranya yang brisik membuat pembicaraan dalam Bajaj bisa jadi romantis, karna harus saling berbisik atau bisa juga menjadi seperti lagi brantem karna kita sebagai penumpang harus saling berteriak satu sama lain ketika melakukan pembicaraan.

Jadi jangan ngobrol terlalu serius kalo dalam Bajaj. Tapi klo emang sama gebetan atau pacar silakan, karna bisa dijadiin waktu yang pas untuk duduk berdekatan. hahahah...

Kendaraan ini adalah salah satu alat transportasi yang paling gue suka. Yup. Karena selain gampang di dapet di sekitar rumah dan klo dapet abang langganan bisa lebih murah dari taxi dan dari ojek sekali pun. Trip paling jauh yang pernah gue naek Bajaj tuh sampe disebrang Karet, gedung Dharmala Sakti -dari rumah yang ada di daerah Pademangan -deket daerah PRJ situ- gue bayar 25rb Rupiah ajah :D

Sedangkan klo trip biasa dari rumah ke kantor yang disekitar jalan Guntur atau Halimun, Manggarai itu gue bayar 17rb Rupiah :) lebih murah dari naek taxi kan?
Makanya itu kadang karna dah kebiasaan enak naek Bajaj, jadi agak males naek angkot. Untungnya gak tiap hari malesnya :D

Setelah dicoba untuk mencari sedikit info tentang Bajaj, yang ternyata nama BAJAJ itu sendiri adalah salah satu merk automotive yang ada di India. Mungkin ada yang dah tau, tapi ada juga yang blum tau, klo emang blum ada yang tau. Now, you know :p

Bajaj lama - gambar disamping- itu setoran hariannya 40rb Rupiah kalau nariknya full. Selama 8 jam klo gak salah. Tapi yang baru ini bisa sampai 80rb Rupiah. Bahan bakarnya gak pake oli campur lagi seperti bajaj lama, tapi bisa pake premium atau bahan bakar gas (BBG)

Belakangan ini sudah muncul Bajaj terbaru dengan suara lebih halus dan memakai mesin 4 tak. Melalui beberapa pembicaraan dengan si sopir kesimpulan yang didapat adalah Bajaj yang baru ini lebih nyaman dipakai dan mesinnya tidak terlalu cerewet dibanding yang lama. Memang mau tidak mau uang setoran jadi 2x lebih banyak, tapi penumpang juga sepertinya lebih memilih untuk naek bajaj yang baru jika ada pilihan :)

Memang suasana didalam Bajaj jadi lebih nyaman dan lebih luas. Biasanya naik ber-empat tuh dah gak muat masuk, tapi sekarang kayaknya masih bisa muat -tergantung besarnya tubuh penumpang- Dan juga lebih bebas dari tampias air hujan, karna penutup terpalnya itu memakai resleting -seperti terpal mobil jeep- bukan dengan cara di ikat pake tali seperti biasanya. Jadi kalau lagi musim hujan seperti sekarang ini, naik Bajaj baru ini jadi lebih bebas dari kebasahan.


Tapi yang paling gue tunggu adalah klo memang pada akhirnya Bajaj generasi berikutnya






Nyok kite naek Bajaj rame-rame :D
Keren juga kayaknya klo naek Bajaj generasi baru kayak diatas. Mending gue beli Bajaj dari pada beli mobil kayaknya. Secara lebih murah juga kayaknya :) hehehe...

Try to write in the different style :)
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Langit sepertinya telah cerah kembali. Sejak tadi pagi hujan mengguyur kota tercinta yang sesak dengan banyaknya kendaraan dan jalur busway yang sedang dipacu untuk cepat selesai.

Waktu berlalu begitu cepat, tak terasa sudah berada dipenghujung tahun kembali. Disaat seperti ini terkadang semua ingatan kembali merekah. Teringat kembali akan semua rasa yang dialami.

Keluh

Apakah yang baik yang sudah kulakukan?
Adakah yang jahat yang sudah berlaku?

Pasti ada dan pasti banyak

Tapi itu adalah urusanku dengan kehidupan ini. Sudah saatnya kembali memasuki masa kontemplasi. Hati dan jiwa ini bergetar saat membaca sebuah artikel tentang seorang buta yang telah mencapai puncak gunung tertinggi di dunia Everest. A Blind Man's Journey to Climb Farther than the Eye Can See. Namanya Erik Weihenmeyer.

Dia menjadi teladan bagi semua tim yang berjalan bersamanya dan juga menjadi panutan bagi para pendaki lain dan juga mungkin orang awam sepertiku. Yang hanya bisa meneteskan airmata dan gemetar karna haru setelah membacanya.

Secara logika, bagaimana mungkin seorang buta bisa sampai pada puncak gunung Everest? Sedangkan banyak sekali orang yang mempunyai indra lebih lengkap saja jarang yang bisa menaklukkan gunung tertinggi tersebut. Mungkin dari sinilah ia mau mengajarkan kepada kita, bahwa apapun bisa kamu capai ketika kamu mempunyai keinginan dan kemampuan untuk mencoba LEBIH dari apa yang sudah disodorkan dan ada dihadapan dunia dan kita.

Beberapa minggu terakhir ini adalah minggu-minggu yang paling emosional dalam hidupku. Berawal dari masuknya Emak kerumah sakit sampai pada puncaknya adalah harus merelakan Emak pergi. Merasakan dan melihat Om dan Tante yang menangis kehilangan Mama. Terlebih lagi ‘merasakan’ ungkapan emosi Om yang masih terganjal dan tak tersampaikan hingga Emak pergi dengan tenang.

Aku merasakan emosi jiwa yang lain.

Emosi jiwa yang menyeruak mengganggu hidupku adalah pikiranpikiranku sendiri akan hidup yang makin berlarut. Melihat temanteman disekitarku belakangan ini seakan mereka hanya bagian dari sandiwara besar yang sudah disiapkan.

Apakah mereka figuran dan aku adalah tokoh utama?
Apakah aku menjadi figuran dan mereka adalah tokoh utama?

Aku tak tahu.

Semua ini hanya dapat dijalani sesuai dengan apa yang seharusnya. Dulu aku pernah berjanji untuk tidak pernah membuat seorang lelaki –manapun- menangis akan aku. Cukup seorang lelaki yang berlutut memohon sambil menangis bertahun lalu, dan itu merupakan saat yang paling membingungkan. Oleh sebab itulah janji terucap. Tapi, entah mengapa sepertinya janji tersebut kembali terlanggar.

Maaf, tidak ada maksudku untuk membiarkan kau meneteskan airmata dan juga bukan maksudku membiarkan hatimu kembali terluka akan ucapan dan tingkah lakuku yang kadang membingungkan. Tidak pernah terlintas untuk menyakiti siapapun. Tapi semoga apapun yang sudah lewat jangan pernah disesali. Karna aku tak pernah menyesali apapun yang sudah terjadi dalam hidupku, baik itu baik, jahat, ataupun culas.

Dalam hubungan apapun dalam hidup aku berusaha melakukan yang terbaik yang kubisa. Jika memang harus menjadikannya raja dalam hidupku, akan kulakukan. :) Jadi jika kalimat ‘you don’t know what you’ve got ‘till it’s gone’ mungkin LEBIH banyak berlaku bagi mereka yang pernah secara khusus bersentuhan cukup dekat dalam hidupku. Bagi semua yang bisa disebut, mantan. Entah gebetan atau pacar.

Terdengar percaya diri sekali kah? Mungkin
Mungkin juga gak, karena memang begitulah adanya

I’ll go beyond myself to satisfy my man. Even I sell my soul to Satan if I could just to make him feel happiness. Its sound so stupid, I know. But, hey! Its just me. I just want to be the taste that lingers in one’s life, even if someday I’ll be gone from one life or even stay for eternity. However, the taste forever will stay.